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5.25.21 - Watched you leaving before you walked away

Lost in places we’re supposed to feel safe 
In dark spaces, time spent tempting fate 
Looking for despair in low corner of self-hate 
Dreading looming disasters in nights so late 
Marriages tested before honeymoon phases 
Lost count of worthless evenings, wasted days 
Miles between pillows, bridges retracted up 
Dreaming of only one person’s touch, so much 
I see it before you do, then, and always 
Wander far, through unfamiliar hallways 
Prefer distraction since it’s easier to avoid 
Anyone’s company is better than noise 
Starved for attention and unladen affection 
Disappeared for days, unanswered questions 
Alone in our empty bed, math adds up poorly 
Ain’t real if it takes a drug for you to love me